There is no worse feeling in the world than the need to start over.I lost writing files again. Yes—I had backed them up onto a flash drive but had to temporarily move them back onto my laptop when I needed a clean flash drive. I didn’t get a chance to put things back before the nasty Trojan decided to hijack my computer and demand a ransom. Every file was locked—I couldn’t open a thing. “They” gave me 48-hours to pay up or lose everything.
We don’t negotiate with terrorists in this house. So, my techie husband wiped the hard drive clean and began to reinstall everything from the operating system upwards. It was like getting a brand new laptop. Starting over.A clean slate can be a good feeling, but it can be scary when the past is destroyed.
This holds true for computer files, but even more so for health scares, dissolved marriages, prodigal children, losing a spouse or the loss of a dream. Looking forward can feel like being at the edge of a cliff. The past doesn’t look the same and the future scares us half to death.
I am learning through my computer troubles, I just need to begin again—one step at a time. Do the next thing and trust for the ability to move forward. And, when I realize afresh another file I have lost for good—I deal with the disappointment and loss again. Yet I know that there is a promise that says, “I will do a new thing…” (Isaiah 43:18-19) and I know nothing is ever wasted. I have to trust that all things will work together for good…(Romans 8:28).
Sometimes the “good” in the middle of the new thing is discovering more about myself, more about who God is, and gaining empathy for those who may be struggling with similar losses. I remember God’s word to me saying, “Do not be afraid, I will go with you” (Deuteronomy 31:6). And, I am realizing I only see a small portion of a much bigger picture—one that He is stitching together to affect eternity.
Are you at the edge of a cliff? What scares you the most?
"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:18-19